Yesterday, I picked up a box of nicotine patches to help me quit smoking. I’m kind of sad to quit. I really do enjoy it so much! Today is the first day I am using a nicotine patch. I stuck it on my left upper arm and immediately regretted it, I don’t like how it looks there. 😦
I put it on as I was finishing up getting ready for work and by the time I was in my car my left arm felt really weird. Like it was just about to go “fuzzy”, or numb. It didn’t go numb… but it felt weird. I would try and shake it off, but my elbow was intermittently feeling uncomfortable all day. I just didn’t like the way it felt. Like my left arm was on crack. Overall, I feel fatigued and weak. My muscles feel tight though. I guess I mostly feel sluggish.
However, I’m not craving cigarettes. Every time I come to a point where I would smoke one, I feel like I’m forgetting something, then I remember I quit smoking and then I want one. But I don’t want one bad enough. The nicotine patch is keeping me strong. …whatever. I’ve also been chugging water if I have a particularly vicious craving. Usually as sudden as the craving pops up, it’ll go away.
I had to leave work early today because my sisters and I were taking our dresses for the wedding to David’s Bridal to be altered. This turned out to be a bunch of B.S. Long story short, Sarah and I figure, we will worry about ours later, they’re fine now. So we took Shannon’s gown to a local taylor, Karmucha Alterations, and the girls there were so incredibly nice and so creative and fun! Here’s what Shannon’s bustle will look something like.
I also started tanning again today. I had given up on tanning a long time ago, since it takes me too long to build and keep a tan… Without strictly monitoring a gradual build-up, I simply: burn.peel. repeat. I want to be a little radiant for Shannon’s upcoming wedding though, so I figured I need to start the build-up now and maintain. Plus, this summer I don’t want to reflect the sun back off of me at the beach…
I figure, this can be a learning experience for other Gingers who may want to build a tan.
It isn’t advised by ANYONE that “Gingers” and others with very sensitive, very fragile, melanin-lacking skin expose themselves to any UV light, at anytime, for any reason. At least not without a very good sunblock. But sometimes, as most of us tend to do from time to time, you get a tad curious of what it’s like to do something different. For Gingers, anything other than Vampire white is different. (Granted, most of the “tan” is really clusters of freckles.) Anyway, here’s what I did: